“Performing Is Like Walking On The Edge Of A Knife” – LP for the Lost In Europe series

Other Pleasures | Feb 13, 2018

Oops, she did it again. Three concerts into LP’s American tour, and here is that familiar feeling: NO WAY. The shock wave of her performances hits even those people sitting in a relatively safe place, in front of their screens, so it’s hard to imagine the fire raging there, onsite. But the surviving victims testify that it’s been, indeed, pretty hot. The girls go wild, and the boys follow close behind – if you’ve missed it, you may want to check the videos from the Ace Of Spades and The Independent’s shows. Well, if you’re in a hurry, then actually the pictures by Marc Fong taken during the San Francisco show will do. You can find them in the Events / Past Events section. And since we are around the topic of LP’s touring, there is this one must-see video that we have to bring back, because we feel it simply can’t vanish into the depths of the internet. It was recorded in the Fall of 2016 and it’s quintessential regarding LP’s approach to performing, writing and, basically, life.

Still frame from the “Lost In Europe” series

The video is the last part of the “Lost In Europe” series recorded in Europe in September of 2016, and released in November-December of the same year during the Lost In Europe tour. The initial three of the four part series are a video recap of LP’s shows in Milan, Paris and Athens, and the last one features quite a special narration by LP. 

While listening to what LP says in the video, you can feel that she weighs her words and chooses them carefully. It’s the fruit of some very well asked questions (we don’t get to hear them though) and her well-thought answers. She tells the story of her career from the perspective of the success she has accomplished, with a beautiful short documentary of her triumphant September shows in the background. But through the way she tells her story, not only what she says, but also how she says it, she allows us to feel the struggle and the burden of the long years that went by between consecutive fruitless record deals that fired up all her hopes only to put them down again. The honesty of this short statement and the charge brought with it really stands out, and it somehow highlights the “never give up” message that naturally emerges in the end even more. It’s striking because LP, as a positive thinker, usually speaks about it in a light way, joking around, and you really need to be familiar with her background to understand what’s underneath her smooth Sinatra cool. This is what makes this video so precious – you learn about the actual events in a nutshell, with all their bitterness, and you get to feel that you’ve really taken part in a watershed moment of bringing that magnificent artist exactly where she belongs, into the global spotlight.

If you saw this video back in 2016, don’t make the mistake of not watching it again now. It’s a must.

 

LP for the “Lost In Europe” series, Part 4

 

TRANSCRIPT

Music is one of the great gifts of life, I think. It brings back, like, an avalanche of memories and feelings. It’s our whole life, you know. I wonder when people say: “Your life flashed before your eyes,” I wonder if the music comes with it, or not, you know. I bet for some people it has, you know?

It’s very deep to me. It’s like your DNA.

Performing is…it’s… it’s literally like walking on the edge of a knife or something. It’s, like, at once powerful and weak, at the same time.

One of the biggest things is getting myself ready. Present. To just be there. But, to be thinking, like, it’s a weird thing, I’m keeping that kind of buoyant feeling, like, “Anything can happen” feeling, but the “I gotta hit all these marks.” Like, I really wanted to do everything that’s necessary and keep the balloon in the air. I think about that, but I try not to fixate on it, you know. I just try to keep myself, like, kind of floating.

You were there last night, it was like, I couldn’t explain that, really.

That’s when I go to the show and I love it, I’m just like, “There’s no way to describe what just happened.” It’s very personal. You get to see that and participate in it, and nobody else gets this, it’s a memory of yours, forever. It’s just nice to feel that you went through something, together, in a way.

I was kind of dubious about ever being a musician, ’cause I grew up completely not in that world. My older brother is a doctor, he’s a brain surgeon, for God sake. My dad was a lawyer, everybody in my family were lawyers and doctors. Being a musician was like, “How do you even go about that?” When I decided to do it, I knew no one, I knew nothing, I had no idea even where to begin, and I just was like, “It’s so out there, I can’t even wrap my head around doing this… maybe I’ll do it!” That was like… it was so wild to me.

I think every artist goes through this, when they’re like, “Am I crazy?! I must suck! I have to be honest with myself!”

You know, my first major label deal, I finally was like, “Ok, well, I must have something if I got this!,” and then I got dropped, and I was like, “ugh,” and then I got another one, and then I got dropped, and then I got a deal to be a writer, and then, it just kept going. I’ve been lucky enough to make a living for the last ten years, in music, and I have no complaints, but I did not see, like, what’s happening in my life right now coming.

I could be the spokesperson for musicians and artists as far as, you know… Just keep going, man, just fucking keep going, try to keep going, because you never know what’s gonna happen, you know.

It’s like, ‘Yeah, it’s fucking hard.’ And that’s it.

 

Veronica Tedderson, thank you for your help with the transcript!